Thoughts are like the streets of a city, and you get to choose which street to drive on, even a street that’s full of pots holes and hazards.
I never pay attention to my thoughts, I walk through each day stepping from busyness to busyness. Sure I spend more time being lonely and depressed than I do being happy and fulfilled. Isn’t that the way it’s supposed to be?
Then a friend asked me, “If you had a friend who spoke to you the way you speak to yourself, would they still be your friend?”
I stopped. I listened. It was hard. I couldn’t listen for long. Busyness kept distracted me.
I stopped again. I listened again. I surprised myself by checking in during the times when I was in autopilot. It was still hard.
It shouldn’t be this hard. But for me, it was. You see. It wasn’t that I couldn’t hear what my thoughts were telling me, I just didn’t want to hear them. They were a part of the fabric of my life that I had been ignoring for so long, they had blended into the background static.
Then I listened to that static, the thoughts slowly emerged. I deeply sighed.
I heard my thoughts, saw them, felt them, and I heard the words of others echoing in my head. “I can’t tell you the number of times that people come up to me and tell me that I’m a terrible writer. It’s either that, or they can’t make eye contact with me. My boss telling me to not help people. I’ve even had people refuse to talk with me again after reading what I’ve written. I’ve lost friends, and jobs. I have zero value to anyone in this world.”
That inner voice is a parrot who never stops.
A still small voice emerged. “Thoughts are like the streets of a city, and you get to choose which street to drive on, even a street that’s full of pots holes and hazards.” My thoughts were definitely running on a badly maintained road.
The still small voice led me to Ephesians 6:10-13.
“Finally, be strong in the Lord, relying on his mighty strength. Put on the whole armor of God so that you may be able to stand firm against the devil’s strategies. For our struggle is not against human opponents, but against rulers, authorities, cosmic powers in the darkness around us, and evil spiritual forces in the heavenly realm. For this reason, take up the whole armor of God so that you may be able to take a stand whenever evil comes. And when you have done everything you could, you will be able to stand firm.”
The Lord’s thoughts, which we have written down for us, are in a much better place.
Now I fight to take every thought captive and bring them to a better place, as measured by my heart and the bible. I choose to be a follower of Christ, and that starts with my thoughts.
I can’t tell you that’s it’s been easy, because I’d be lying. Still, since traveling on this path, I’ve had greater peace, greater happiness, and a much cleaner heart that has the ability to hear the troubles of others and help them in a meaningful way.
Isn’t that what’s life’s about? Working together to make this world a better place for everyone?
Thoughts. Step 1.