When I first came to the mountain, I expected huge cheers from my family. I expected that my friends would be proud of me. I had so many expectations. It turns out that one of them were true. No one cared. They were polite at first. Then they were polite and aloof. Then they simply ignored me.
I guess they thought it was a phase I was going through. I guess they thought that I would get over it. I guess they really wanted to stop thinking about it. I did a lot of guessing, but I didn’t really know why. No one was honest with me for a long, long time.
Finally one day they slipped. Or, they just got fed up. “Really, what DO you see in that broken bridge? why does it captivate you? Can you please just get over it already?”
Stunned was an understatement. “Haven’t you been listening? It’s not the broken bridge. It’s what’s past the bridge. It’s past the bridge! Here, let me tell you about it! You have to come and see it!”
They wouldn’t listen. They’re not listening now. Perhaps they never will. “Oh please God, how can I tell them that they’re wrong? How do I get them to understand? How can I tell them that this is the view that I see? This is the view that they could be seeing too!”
My heart broke. ” God, I guess people can only see what they want to see. Perhaps, one day, if I work hard enough, they will be able to see it through my eyes. Now I understand what you said in Matthew 13:9-16.
“9 He who has ears, let him hear.” 10 The disciples came to him and asked, “Why do you speak to the people in parables?” 11 He replied, “The knowledge of the secrets of the kingdom of heaven has been given to you, but not to them. 12 Whoever has will be given more, and he will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him. 13 This is why I speak to them in parables: “Though seeing, they do not see; though hearing, they do not hear or understand. 14 In them is fulfilled the prophecy of Isaiah: ” ‘You will be ever hearing but never understanding; you will be ever seeing but never perceiving. 15 For this people’s heart has become calloused; they hardly hear with their ears, and they have closed their eyes. Otherwise they might see with their eyes, hear with their ears, understand with their hearts and turn, and I would heal them.’ 16 But blessed are your eyes because they see, and your ears because they hear.”